Why Baptiste Yoga?
I believe life is about healing. HEAL-ing. HEAL-th. The word health is overused and misunderstood.
Many view yoga as a healing modality, I do. I have since jr. high. Growing up as a dancer and gymnast I looked to yoga, at the gym mostly, as an excuse to stretch. Of course I did not think in high school that I was healing much, in high school does anyone get how many issues we already need to heal from? Doubtful.
I am reading a book called The Dark Side of the Light Chasers. In her book Debbie Ford (now passed away from cancer) talks about how we have a few decades in life…then the rest of our decades we are simply trying to understand the first 2. This idea struck a chord with me. How true that so many of us are looking for healing from our past, from our childhood, from trauma, abuse, death, disease and sometimes we are just simply trying to understand our life and our feelings.
I would practice yoga on and off over 2 decades - throughout having 3 babies, an 8 year mortgage career, a decade as a fitness expert, business ventures and I used yoga (hot yoga has always drawn me in) as a way to survive my life and tap into my feelings. It was great, or what I thought was great anyway. I remember living in Washington D.C. and attending a Bikram yoga class. I liked mostly the heat and what I got to sweat out.
I was not really happy at that point in my life, but I could not say that back then, I could not term my life as unhappy. I did not have access, at that time in my life, to the deep unhappiness that I was going through internally because of my life agreements and interpretations. I could feel my irritation and sadness, however I could not and would not say my feelings, maybe I did not have the words or maybe I did not want to hurt anyone, regardless of why I could not be honest with myself it is clear now as I look back, and with the Baptiste Methodology that I WAS STUCK.
I quite being contracted with Zumba Fitness and for the next year I would push myself to work and do life the way I thought I needed to do it. Until one day I could not do it any longer and I was on the bathroom floor crying. Mind you I was STILL practicing yoga and was teaching fitness.
This was the time that I let go of the way I thought life was meant to be. I had to, but I was depleted and did not know what to do or where to go, so I did my family and began to refinish furniture and listen to books, lots and lots of books. At this time, I heard about Baptiste yoga and began to research it. I was intrigued, but man was it expensive. Plus, what did it mean to have more power in my life anyway?
You don’t know what you do not know. You know what you have experienced, and even then that knowledge is still an interpretation of the lens you look through. So, I took a gamble and went to level 1. My life was changed. My tool belt grew and I now had not only a yoga practice that LIT me up I had a whole way to look at my life, begin talking about my life, past and experiences and most importantly sifting through the millions of feelings that I had not had access to expressing throughout my entire life.
To tell you the story of me standing in front of 162 people at level 1 with Baron Baptiste and being asked to consider I was not happy was a life changing event, makes me laugh. I could try and tell you about that experience but I won’t. It is mine. That day my heart broke. That day my world crumbled. That was the day my life fell apart.
Since then my life has continued to fall apart…in all the best ways.
The undoing is the journey. The way out of the dark is to be with it for as long as you need, and maybe until you see just how beautiful the darkness truly is.
My timeline of Baptiste programs looks like this:
June 2016 Level 1 Sedona AZ
July 2017 Level 2 Phoenicia NY
October 2-17 Level 3 Phoenicia NY
Certribution (between those)
Fit to lead April 2018-2019
Affiliate studio – Baptiste Power Yoga Southern Utah November 2019
To honor what’s true, not what should be for me is be true about what Baptiste has given me.
Baptiste Yoga has been a stand for me. Baron Baptiste as amazing as he is, has not given me my power, I had that all along. Baron did not give me happiness, nor did he give me a new career. Paige, the goddess that she is, did not make me into someone I should be or grant me a special miracle to live into my potencia. Nor have the hundreds of friends I have made through hugs, programs and 3 years of intense, life altering Baptiste work given me my soul.
What is true is that I sink my teeth into life. What is true is that I have been open and willing to LEARN, to FEEL, to CONSIDER that the way I have done life may not be the best. What is true is that I have been OPEN in my heart, mind and body to LEARN something new, a better way, a greater possibility – first and foremost for myself.
By doing me, myself and I I AM the rock that hits into the pond and the ripples go where they may. I am the rock, and so are you. I create my own ripples and you create yours. People do not need your ripples, they need to see you ARE the rock, so in turn they THEN have access to the rock within themselves. YOUR rock is YOUR power. My rock is MY power. Baptiste Power Yoga is a rock because Baron is a rock, Paige is a rock, LeAndra, Luca, Jennifer, the Silvera’s…ALL of us BECOME the rock. I am mine, and you are yours.
THAT my friends is living with power. When you do not give a man, or woman or business or coach or Instagram famous celebrity, or YouTube overnight success your power OR all your time. I have chosen Baptiste as a practice and as one of the most powerful rocks in my life. The tools and techniques of asana, meditation and inquiry have given me access to what I have within, peace.
That is Why Baptiste Yoga.